Have you ever been stretched between joy and sorrow, light and shadows, sweetness and sadness?
That’s what July is for me. Tuesday, as I mentioned in Wednesday’s update, was Annalise’s tenth birthday- a day of fun and celebration, where I celebrated this daughter I never thought I’d have…
Because, you see, we were only planning to have two children, and she is our third.
And today – July 13 – is our second child’s birthday…and the beginning of the twelve-day stretch I call Elijah’s Days – the days that mark his very brief lifetime, all of it spent in the NICU, mostly in a coma from which he never woke. July 25 will mark the end of that lifetime, and, four days after that, I turn 45.
July is tricky. Elijah would be elven today, if he had lived – and Annalise wouldn’t exist. Our family would be different in ways too numerous and profound to mention here. I plan to take that on tomorrow, in my Coffee and Conversation post.
What I’ve found is that sorrow can coexist with grief. They’re interwoven, for me, forever. There’s no “getting over” the death of that sweet baby who lived only 12 days, but will forever be a part of who I am. The best I can do is to accept that it is as it is, and give love to those I can, and remember a small, perfect little person with an irreversibly injured brain, who was gone so long before I was ready to part with him…
In honor and remembrance of Elijah, I’m asking that, over the next 12 days, you lavish your beloveds with love. Life is brief, and uncertain, except for one thing…we are all going to die, someday. I’m not trying to be morbid, only realistic. Our time here is finite. Pretending it’s not, changes nothing.
Will you do it? Can you make life sweeter for those you love? Can you include yourself? If you do, I would love to hear about it in the comments. It would be a note of joy and hope to balance those lower emotional tones…
And now, on to the update, because, as always, writing helps!
July Focal Areas:
CampNaNoWriMoTarget attained! (50,115 words).
Blog Maintenance and Exploration
Build positive blogging habits – post regularly, build queues, answer comments, and share diversely.
Maintain regular posting schedule;queue one post for each regular feature.On target.
All regular posts done.
Sunday Post for July 13.
Gathering mental ideas for queues. This will not apply to SoCS posts, since those are prompted weekly on Fridays.
Develop a sharing strategy that feels natural; incorporating input from Kristen. On target.
No Kristen yet, but I’ve put a couple ideas into experimental use; more on them later.
Continue interacting through comments; expand and diversify my willingness to comment. On target.
Again, I’ve put a couple new practices into play; more on them later.
Comments are being answered, but so many lovely folks have things to say that I’m a little backlogged! If I haven’t gotten to you yet, I am on my way! =)
Complete rough drafts of
To Be or Not to Be, The Stars Are Fire , and Perchance to Dream.
Continue drafting Perchance to Dream
during July NaNoWriMo. On target.
19,409 new words! WHOA!
50,115/50,000 NaNo Words
113,551 WIP words.
NaNo is won; but I’m continuing on at a slightly more relaxed pace for the remainder of the month.
Continue physical and virtual hometending plans – resetting rooms, cleaning files, and inhabiting my study.
Clean out email files. On target.
A few more done, but now there’s more…
Develop new habits that support organization and productivity.
Experiment with Daily Writing Frames from Round 1.On target.
I’m paying attention to the flow of days, and what I tend to do with them. It’s early days, yet.
Develop Daily Hometending Frames. On target.
Same as above; paying attention.
Set aside time weekly for administrative stuff (Adminstrative Frames, maybe?) On target.
Same as above…
Continue exploring fitness goals – more on this throughout the round.
Nutrition goals for July:
Acquire Intuitive Eating ebook. Target attained!
- Book is waiting in my Kindle.
Consume minimum five veggie/fruit salads and/or fruit smoothies each week. Target attained for this week.
- 3 salads; two smoothies.
Consume Greek yogurt and nuts minimum twice weekly. Target attained for this week
Twice for each.
Yes, I visited…adding them to Wednesday’s post…time grows short to post before midnight!